It's our 19th month today so I say wow time flies! I know some people think it's dumb to remember dates/anniversaries but I feel that this is the least two can do, I never thought it was cliche remembering it or felt it was totally redundant to save it down in your calendar.
It's really just the thought of counting the days together and see how far something special went, ran, stumbled, fallen, picked up and got up stronger and continued to run...yup and still running.(by the way the previous post was not referring to my boyfriend as some people interpreted)

I usually detest reunion dinner because my relatives always ask me the same few questions- sometimes made me wonder why don't they take the effort to remember some things about me? So annoying(!!!!!!!!) but today I kinda ask myself the same question, like how much do I know about them too. So stop complaining Aubrey and start remembering your cousins' age and be more interested in knowing their conversations instead of sms-ing/stoning/zonking out(HAHHA).
But this year's reunion dinner took a different turn, Mom and Sister invited Yk to it so that's when I see the real importance of knowing my relatives.
It's quite a disgrace if an outsider asks you about your family/relatives and you don't really know anything about it?!

it was quite a pleasant dinner overall seeing my younger cousins grow older :)

Today was also the first transfers' service and it's really quite heartening to see the lifegroup expanding which says much about God working in the lifegroup, so so so happy. It was pratically the first time, JJ lifegroup occupied one row of seats in service and a table in Meridien(as mentioned by Wendy).
Anyway, I really was enlightened when I sang Worship today- 'Lord is higher than your hopes and dreams.'

You know, I really want to think and be instilled that God is higher than my hopes and dreams in my life. I don't want to feel afraid to lose out or lose confidence due to flaws in my character and failures in the different areas of my life.
I want to know that even though there is 1% of success and there is pratically no hope in a situation,
I still want to dare to believe in God that He will eventually make a way out if that's in His will.
I want to believe that God can do it and I do not want to focus so much on what i can do but what He can.

I just don't want to be insecure because when I get insecure I will forget about the promises God has given to me.

SIGHSIGHSIGH

So anyway before I go and sulk in my sleep, hahaah okay no feel secure in my sleep, I also want to say that God should never be a blessings generator. Like how we always expect people to remember things about us, do things for us- but before we even EXPECT, I think we should first ask ourselves if we ever tried to do things for them and remember things about them. I think God is actually all-knowing, we don't even need to tell Him how we feel and blahblahblah but He just wants to cherish our relationship with Him which is why we need to talk to Him and not assume that He knows it he knows it He knows it. God doesn't exist just to bless us with whatever we want.........(!)

Alrighttttttttys, I.Am.Tired.
I have a freaking Econs test next Wednesday that I have to slog for
and my grades are mediocre sometimes not even reflecting the effort I have put in wah need to buck up and work harder!


Six words: Count my every moment with God